Confessions

By Badria Hajjar

I’m sitting alone near the window pane

Watching the clouds pour, watching the rain

Thinking about my life and all my dreams

Just looking at the world and how it seems

Wondering to myself how I got to where I am

And why I’m failing Gods exam

He says call to me and I will forgive

I am so ashamed because all he does is give

I selfishly take

Barely appreciate

I ask for more with a heart filled with greed

Forgetting the less fortunate and those in most need

Each raindrop would be as equal to a sin

A sin that always haunts me from deep within

I’m scared and my eyes and heart are bleeding with tears

I’m so sorry for what I’ve done all these years

Oh God, forgive me

I need you, no one else but you

Bestow your mercy and help me through

I want nothing more but your forgiveness

Your love, your mercy and your bliss

Please guide me and don’t leave me astray

Please help me find the right way

I’m sitting alone near the window pane

Watching the clouds pour, watching the rain

When a rainbow appears from beneath the sky

And I can’t hold my tears back and I just cry

That rainbow must be a sign of hope

That God hasn’t left me and he shall help me cope

A sign that he hasn’t left me in despair

And that he shall guide me and help me repair

Repair my heart, my soul and mind

And that he’s always with me and will never leave me behind

Oh God I love you and for that I have confessed

Every wrong I’ve done and have tried to suppress

Forgive me my lord, for your bless is my only road to eternal success…